My Prayer (Written August 2008)

Dear Lord,
First of all I just wanna continue to thank you for blessing my family and I even though many of them don't even realize how fortunate we are. LORD, I know I make mistakes and most of the time i know EXACTLY what I'm doing and I know it not only displeases you but it hurts you. LORD, you know my weaknessess and my strengths. And I have COMPLETE FAITH that you will look beyond my mistakes and continue to enstill me with the wisdom, knowledge, courage, patience, DETERMINATION to fulfill the destiny you have for me. LORD, I'm a little confused and excited at the same time becuase I made a new friend lord. The same friend I have been asking you for continuously. What makes me confused is, I liked him first. and the more i get to know him, I see that he is exactly what I've always wanted in my life. He may not be perfect, but for some reason I can see through him and see him for who he really is. It's like looking at myself. The sad part that really hurts me though, is also when I see him, I see something that I cannot have. He's not taken, but I feel as though I will never have him. He's EXACTLY what I want, but 9 times out of 10 I know it'll never happen, because that kind of stuff never happens to me. Anyway, right now I want to be his friend for the simple fact that I feel as though he can help me grow as a person. And perhaps he could learn from me as well. LORD, over the last year, I have seen you make some major changes in my life right before my eyes. You made the impossible possible for me Lord; and I thank you for that. LORD, I KNOW for a fact you have bigger things lying ahead of me in my future, I KNOW you have a purpose for me lord; if not why am I still here? Lord I could have been DEAD or on the streets back at home lord, but you've been there for me. You've allowed me to gain the confidence that i NEVER had before in my life lord. Lord,I can't thank you enough for the storms you've alllowed to come turn my life upside down beause they made me the SOLDIER I am today lord. You are TRULY LORD OF ALL. In JESUS' name AMEN